Life had been such a horrible mess. cant seems to be thinking straight.
HELP
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 8:18:00 PM
HELP
something happened recently and it somehow affected me very very very badly.
how mean, arrogant and selfish this person could be.
does hurting someone feelings make him feel better or more superior den the others?
i dun understand. i reali dun.
why is there such a person.
it had been bothering me for a couple for days until i decided to tell *him.
i liked the way *he gave me advice, comfort me.
this stupid person had made me realised how impt *he was to me.
i oso came to know that he was the only who loved me for who i am.
just let me cry on your shoulder w/o asking me why. *ilu
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:08:00 PM
how mean, arrogant and selfish this person could be.
does hurting someone feelings make him feel better or more superior den the others?
i dun understand. i reali dun.
why is there such a person.
it had been bothering me for a couple for days until i decided to tell *him.
i liked the way *he gave me advice, comfort me.
this stupid person had made me realised how impt *he was to me.
i oso came to know that he was the only who loved me for who i am.
just let me cry on your shoulder w/o asking me why. *ilu
had a pretty bad time. din understand why too.
why are ppl so difficult to understand.
everyone seems to be putting on a mask.
pretending to be who they are not.
when the truth surfaces, it gets so ugly.
sometimes jus wan someone to be there for me to lean on.
someone for me to grumble and complain to.
but it's pretty difficult i guess.
no one's gona stay forever
all good things got to come to an end. sooner or later.
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 10:58:00 PM
im back again after another 8 months! hAhA
so much more had happened during the past 8 months.
sometimes i reali wondered how did i even managed to go thru this 8 months. so much unhappiness, so much heartache, so much emotional struggle.
it's getting so hard to adjust to the kind of life im having now.
life is a struggle.
life isnt just about relationship anymore. so much more had happened in my life.
forcing myself to grow up and get out of my comfort zone.
more independent defintely. not sure if that's good or bad.
it's getting so hard to understand someone.
humans are weird.
im weird too.
im super weird.
*sigh
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 1:16:00 AM
why are ppl so difficult to understand.
everyone seems to be putting on a mask.
pretending to be who they are not.
when the truth surfaces, it gets so ugly.
sometimes jus wan someone to be there for me to lean on.
someone for me to grumble and complain to.
but it's pretty difficult i guess.
no one's gona stay forever
all good things got to come to an end. sooner or later.
im back again after another 8 months! hAhA
so much more had happened during the past 8 months.
sometimes i reali wondered how did i even managed to go thru this 8 months. so much unhappiness, so much heartache, so much emotional struggle.
it's getting so hard to adjust to the kind of life im having now.
life is a struggle.
life isnt just about relationship anymore. so much more had happened in my life.
forcing myself to grow up and get out of my comfort zone.
more independent defintely. not sure if that's good or bad.
it's getting so hard to understand someone.
humans are weird.
im weird too.
im super weird.
*sigh
i miss the old you sooo much..
u seems so different, so distant.
everythings seems so out of place now.
i dunno where im standing now.
it's hard to even understand myself.
somtimes i wonder what i reali wants, and how i want it to be.
im the one who doesnt wants it that way yet,
im the one who cant let go. funni isnt it?
*hug me tight n dun let go pls.
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 2:29:00 AM
u seems so different, so distant.
everythings seems so out of place now.
i dunno where im standing now.
it's hard to even understand myself.
somtimes i wonder what i reali wants, and how i want it to be.
im the one who doesnt wants it that way yet,
im the one who cant let go. funni isnt it?
*hug me tight n dun let go pls.
im finalli back! dunno from where also..
my darlin~ blog had been left vacant for like... ermx.. EIGHT months!!
phhew~* that's a really long long time...
during this 8 months, im sure alot of things happened and changed.. wellll.. i cant rem ani.
Lol~
i got poor memory. wad to do sia..
aniway. for my come bac this time. it's due to... IM BORED..
so tootupid rites. i got nth to do u see..
okae. back to my life now..
well, school jus started for a week. im soo dammmnn heng lorhx!! i got Joan in the same class as me and i din have some dumbo tutors teaching me. yipppEeeee..
i had seen some of my new classmates. hopefully it will be a fruitful year bahx.
i still having second tots abt attachment. someone please enlighten me!! *jiu ming arhx.
i guess tat's all for now. wonder if i will be back to blog again. LOl.
tata~*
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 1:16:00 AM
my darlin~ blog had been left vacant for like... ermx.. EIGHT months!!
phhew~* that's a really long long time...
during this 8 months, im sure alot of things happened and changed.. wellll.. i cant rem ani.
Lol~
i got poor memory. wad to do sia..
aniway. for my come bac this time. it's due to... IM BORED..
so tootupid rites. i got nth to do u see..
okae. back to my life now..
well, school jus started for a week. im soo dammmnn heng lorhx!! i got Joan in the same class as me and i din have some dumbo tutors teaching me. yipppEeeee..
i had seen some of my new classmates. hopefully it will be a fruitful year bahx.
i still having second tots abt attachment. someone please enlighten me!! *jiu ming arhx.
i guess tat's all for now. wonder if i will be back to blog again. LOl.
tata~*
u had stepped into my life.
will u stay?
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 2:08:00 PM
will u stay?
*blows.. hUFf. lots of dust on my poor lil bloggie liew.
so long nv blog.. ahha. so im here to update!!
i went to the birdpark about 2weeks ago.. lol
so free rites? ahah. was reali TOO free during the holiday.
now busy like hell. *sigh
i cant reali rem wad i did at the birdpark..
it's quite small lah. and i finish walking round the birdpark in one hour plus which is pretty short..
but i see qi er!!! nice nice.. cuties. ahhaa.
in conclusion,
zoo is more fun. *grins.
Ps. mummy!! shud be u bring me to zoo. not the other way round. hehe
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 2:15:00 PM
PENGUIN!! Qi ER~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:08:00 PM
and lots!!! of swans
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:07:00 PM
noti swan.. disturb the tortoise
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:07:00 PM
off to babaland~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:06:00 PM
start the race!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:06:00 PM
birdshow~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 11:05:00 PM
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 10:01:00 AM
lazy lion sleeping~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:07:00 PM
polar bear peeping!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:07:00 PM
white tiger~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:06:00 PM
MOOMOO!!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:05:00 PM
white horse prince charming. lol~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:04:00 PM
meh meh's saliva all over the place!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:04:00 PM
feeding meh meh. hehe
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:03:00 PM
doggie faking death
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:03:00 PM
wooden hse =))
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:02:00 PM
he's being noti!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:02:00 PM
monkey digging for can drinks!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:00:00 PM
so long nv blog.. ahha. so im here to update!!
i went to the birdpark about 2weeks ago.. lol
so free rites? ahah. was reali TOO free during the holiday.
now busy like hell. *sigh
i cant reali rem wad i did at the birdpark..
it's quite small lah. and i finish walking round the birdpark in one hour plus which is pretty short..
but i see qi er!!! nice nice.. cuties. ahhaa.
in conclusion,
zoo is more fun. *grins.
Ps. mummy!! shud be u bring me to zoo. not the other way round. hehe
PENGUIN!! Qi ER~
and lots!!! of swans
noti swan.. disturb the tortoise
off to babaland~
start the race!
birdshow~
[updates updates]
i went to the ZOO yesterday! *grins
sooOOoOooooOo long nv go there liao. i feel like a kid again
ahha.
but zoo admisssion arent cheap. and the stuffs sold inside there arent cheap too!!
bad bad.. sorri darling. hai u broke.. sorri. muack!
and the zoo website bluff ppl one!!
trams rides still need to pay on weekdays *sulk.
nvm. i had fun! mauhaha
had fun seeing animals..
the lazy lions sleeping in the afternoon
the noti monkey who sneaks out from somewhere. *scare scare
the dog dat fakes death. *noti.. shakes head
the hungry sheep..mayb the zookeeper abuse them eh. *meh meh.
the white horse.. damn chio
the white tiger .. damn chio too!!
not forgetting all the animals shows! so funnieeeee.. hehe
overall, i had fun! *grins
i shall go birdpark soon. haha
thanks darling. =))
below are some photos taken on dat day. hehee
lazy lion sleeping~
polar bear peeping!
white tiger~
MOOMOO!!
white horse prince charming. lol~
meh meh's saliva all over the place!
feeding meh meh. hehe
doggie faking death
wooden hse =))
he's being noti!
monkey digging for can drinks!
haven been blogging for quite a while yarh
im sure all my blog fans are dying to noe wad had been going on in moi life.
lol. okays..
erms. went for class outing yesterdae.
well, not reali a class outing as less den half the class turned up.
okays. expected.
we din do aniting. practically nth at all.
imagine..
a grp of ppl.jus walked aimlessly.not uttering a word. FUN?
nvm. =))
[highlight of the class outing]
we found a worm and played with it.
-fullstop-
after which, i went to marina to meet *him plus another of his fren.
erms. guess he was kinda pissed by me cux i like wana go den dun wan go lidat.
lol.
nvm. girls are frickle minded. -grins-
and i almost lost my way. thx to him. -rolls eyes-
but at the end of the day. i did enjoyed myself.
especially the steamboat dinner.
he had fun showing off his shaolin's "iron hands" skills yarh?
lol.
*love ya darling. =))
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 2:34:00 PM
*muack
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 6:43:00 PM
hello kitty planting strawberries!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 10:48:00 PM
im sure all my blog fans are dying to noe wad had been going on in moi life.
lol. okays..
erms. went for class outing yesterdae.
well, not reali a class outing as less den half the class turned up.
okays. expected.
we din do aniting. practically nth at all.
imagine..
a grp of ppl.jus walked aimlessly.not uttering a word. FUN?
nvm. =))
[highlight of the class outing]
we found a worm and played with it.
-fullstop-
after which, i went to marina to meet *him plus another of his fren.
erms. guess he was kinda pissed by me cux i like wana go den dun wan go lidat.
lol.
nvm. girls are frickle minded. -grins-
and i almost lost my way. thx to him. -rolls eyes-
but at the end of the day. i did enjoyed myself.
especially the steamboat dinner.
he had fun showing off his shaolin's "iron hands" skills yarh?
lol.
*love ya darling. =))
*muack
hello kitty planting strawberries!
[letting him/her go]
-letting go of a person u've just learned to love ...
-taking the risk to fall in love again ...
-shielding ur heart to love somebody ...
-reminiscing the good times u shared together ...
-trying to hide what u really feel ...
-trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes ...
-giving up someone u never thought of giving up ...
-having the right love at the wrong time ...
-helping the one you love court your friend ...
-hiding ur relationship from someone else ...
-thinking of himevery waking and sleeping moment ...
-controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend ...
-knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you ...
-letting go, because everytime you see the person,you only fall deeper
-holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out ...
-finding the perfect guy but he doesnt love you ...
-loving a person too much ...
-waiting hurts like hell, ended up hearing "... she's the one i loved the most" ...
-agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'.
-asking his freedom back bcoz he'd be happier with *her...
-seeing the one you love crying for someone else ...
-telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with *her
-he told u he'd be leaving u to return to his ex
-fighting for that one thing that would make you happy ... that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment .. then, you are left hanging for the moment... he/she says, time will tell...
-but you still decided to hope in him/her and trust him/her ... [PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying... PRETENDING to be strong....]
-hearing that he wants to treated as a big bro ...
-sharing his future plans of the ger with you.
-let u noe his love story abt him and *her
-lying in bed each night, thinking of that person that wun be urs ...
-being with someone you can't actually love...
-pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love... being in love...
-letting go even if you really don't want to...
-asking u to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again
-having no right to say you are hurting, because it was your decision ...
-seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help ...
-having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before ...
-someone who is capable of destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections ...
-falling in love with someone you didnt mean to fall in love with ...
-realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
-finding out that the more you try to hate her/him, the more you end up loving her/him, perhaps even more than before...
-the thought that this guy who used to really love you and you loved him jus as much but it wun be the same ever again..
-sharing the one you love with someone else....
-making a promise, realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be fulfilled.... the commitment is no longer there...
-the hardest thing about love is believing it exists.
After you've been hurt...
learn to forgive ...
learn to trust and love again ..
found this from somewhere..
feel everyone of us will sort of appeal to some of lines. rights?
it's jus part and parcel of life..
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 12:07:00 PM
[sweet] thx darling~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 9:22:00 PM
tongue twisted!
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 12:25:00 AM
sweet~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 12:18:00 AM
-letting go of a person u've just learned to love ...
-taking the risk to fall in love again ...
-shielding ur heart to love somebody ...
-reminiscing the good times u shared together ...
-trying to hide what u really feel ...
-trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes ...
-giving up someone u never thought of giving up ...
-having the right love at the wrong time ...
-helping the one you love court your friend ...
-hiding ur relationship from someone else ...
-thinking of himevery waking and sleeping moment ...
-controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend ...
-knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you ...
-letting go, because everytime you see the person,you only fall deeper
-holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out ...
-finding the perfect guy but he doesnt love you ...
-loving a person too much ...
-waiting hurts like hell, ended up hearing "... she's the one i loved the most" ...
-agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'.
-asking his freedom back bcoz he'd be happier with *her...
-seeing the one you love crying for someone else ...
-telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with *her
-he told u he'd be leaving u to return to his ex
-fighting for that one thing that would make you happy ... that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment .. then, you are left hanging for the moment... he/she says, time will tell...
-but you still decided to hope in him/her and trust him/her ... [PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying... PRETENDING to be strong....]
-hearing that he wants to treated as a big bro ...
-sharing his future plans of the ger with you.
-let u noe his love story abt him and *her
-lying in bed each night, thinking of that person that wun be urs ...
-being with someone you can't actually love...
-pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love... being in love...
-letting go even if you really don't want to...
-asking u to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again
-having no right to say you are hurting, because it was your decision ...
-seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help ...
-having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before ...
-someone who is capable of destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections ...
-falling in love with someone you didnt mean to fall in love with ...
-realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
-finding out that the more you try to hate her/him, the more you end up loving her/him, perhaps even more than before...
-the thought that this guy who used to really love you and you loved him jus as much but it wun be the same ever again..
-sharing the one you love with someone else....
-making a promise, realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be fulfilled.... the commitment is no longer there...
-the hardest thing about love is believing it exists.
After you've been hurt...
learn to forgive ...
learn to trust and love again ..
found this from somewhere..
feel everyone of us will sort of appeal to some of lines. rights?
it's jus part and parcel of life..
[sweet] thx darling~
tongue twisted!
sweet~
darlin~ love ya lots.
so much so much.
more den words can say.
when a ger insists on sumting.
please listen to her eh.~
*grinx
life had been pretty uninteresting lately.
nth much happen.
sch, projects, test, presentation, assignments..
all the usual stuffs.
need some excitement. lolx.
all had been boring.
except for u.~
being there to brighten up my life.
being there to make esther smile.
being there to rot ard with me.
being there to do stupid tings with me.
our bus expedition.
long walks.
the nice esplande at nite.
the beautiful fullerton hotel.
there's still many many other places
i wanna spend time with u.
i wanna walk the whole singapore with u.
wanna cover the whole singapore with our footprints.
*hugs tightly.~
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 10:50:00 AM
so much so much.
more den words can say.
when a ger insists on sumting.
please listen to her eh.~
*grinx
life had been pretty uninteresting lately.
nth much happen.
sch, projects, test, presentation, assignments..
all the usual stuffs.
need some excitement. lolx.
all had been boring.
except for u.~
being there to brighten up my life.
being there to make esther smile.
being there to rot ard with me.
being there to do stupid tings with me.
our bus expedition.
long walks.
the nice esplande at nite.
the beautiful fullerton hotel.
there's still many many other places
i wanna spend time with u.
i wanna walk the whole singapore with u.
wanna cover the whole singapore with our footprints.
*hugs tightly.~
i noe both of us are very stubborn
and got lotsa of disagreements.
but we can always work dat out rites?
i noe u are trying ur best to gif in to me le.
me too alrites.
*hug darlin~
i jus enjoy every single second dat i spend with u.
all ur stupid actions.
all ur sweet talking
all ur funni expression
all ur efforts to make esther happy...
u jus make me laff so much.
making me feel as if.~
there's onli the two of us in tis world.
no one else ard us at all.
no caring how ppl look at us at all...
please learn to build trust in me okies.
dun so easy buay song lah!
lolx.
im learning to open up more to u oreadi okies!
hee~
[*thingscanneverbecomparedtoyourkisses]
darlin~
+ilu+
will be using tis lifetime to love you..
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 12:59:00 AM
and got lotsa of disagreements.
but we can always work dat out rites?
i noe u are trying ur best to gif in to me le.
me too alrites.
*hug darlin~
i jus enjoy every single second dat i spend with u.
all ur stupid actions.
all ur sweet talking
all ur funni expression
all ur efforts to make esther happy...
u jus make me laff so much.
making me feel as if.~
there's onli the two of us in tis world.
no one else ard us at all.
no caring how ppl look at us at all...
please learn to build trust in me okies.
dun so easy buay song lah!
lolx.
im learning to open up more to u oreadi okies!
hee~
[*thingscanneverbecomparedtoyourkisses]
darlin~
+ilu+
will be using tis lifetime to love you..
*iloveyou.yesido.iwillbewithyouforaslongasyouwantmeto.*
a fairy tale starts on 16sept2004..
on da overhead bridge. lolx. =D
darling.~
please dun let me down. =)
let me hug u tight.
let me be part of your life.
let me be inside you heart.
let my life have a part of you.
let me noe u are the one for me.
let me be sure of myself.
let my fear be gone.
let tis be everlasting~
[iwannaholdyoucloseandtighttome]
{From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
Things could never compare to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side}
whatsyourproblem esthee loved on 12:00:00 AM
a fairy tale starts on 16sept2004..
on da overhead bridge. lolx. =D
darling.~
please dun let me down. =)
let me hug u tight.
let me be part of your life.
let me be inside you heart.
let my life have a part of you.
let me noe u are the one for me.
let me be sure of myself.
let my fear be gone.
let tis be everlasting~
[iwannaholdyoucloseandtighttome]
{From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
Things could never compare to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side}
=ex-crescentian= =np= estherbites! +beware+
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